Alone

can I be honest in here ?

I am alone..I have many friends but it makes me worse. I dont have the best one. They come and then go and always like that. I wrote in my twitter "I've lost everything" I really mean it. Do you know how does it feels ? it's hurt..I feel like a loser. I see them laugh and happy without me.

I'm walking in a long dark road, I feel cold. I want to hold someone's hands to make me warmer but I know that's impossible. I just can see them walk far away from me. I dont know where I should go, stuck in here or keep walking even I have to face these storm alone.

I'm kinda dont believe with true friends or best friends. They dont exist, their appearance is just a warn that you will fall down someday. They will leave you and hurt your deepest heart.

But my little heart says that I need them..

What's wrong with me ? I try to be a kind girl and thrown away my demons. but why it still happen to me ? I'm sick of this life. :'(

Have u ever seen your face in a mirror there's a smile but inside you just a mess, you will far from the good. Need to hide cause they never understand.

I miss my close friends in junior high school. They have a new friend (replace me) and she is better than me, they look happier. We never contact each other :( I really miss you guys

I miss all of you that had been come to my heart and make me comfort and warm for a short time. I want to give these tears to prove that I am alone and I really need you

okay, whatever will happen I have to wake up with a full of spirit. Many storms have been waiting for me, even though I'm alone but I'm sure I can through all of these strugle because I have God beside me. When God thinks I can't face it anymore I know God will send the best guardian angel for me.

I'm still waiting for that, I'm sorry for all my friends if I have a selfish character.

I am singing :
"I'm alone on my own and that's all I know. I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on. Oh I'm just a girl whose tryin' to find a place in this world"