Close to you

"Why do birds suddenly appear, every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky, every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you"

I have something to tell you but I dont know should I be happy or afraid ?
I said that I gave up to win his heart and I wrote on my facebook that "he will just disappear"
but the fact is he isn't disappear, today I felt like being ghosted by him

First, I saw him sitting in front of his class (okay, maybe he was just tired so he sat there)
Second, when I came to my english teacher. I saw him walking into us. I dont know what should I do, I walked to my class immadiately.
Third, when I was watching the futsal match between team A and team B, HE STOOD EXACTLY BESIDE ME.

Omg ! My body keep sweating, I couldn't breath normally and I could feel my heartbeat was faster than as usual

I didn't say anything, I was too afraid to see at his face
But I know and I'm sure that HE WAS LOOKING AT ME (maybe he though that I'm weird or ugly or blablabla)

and the last, when I was walking out from school. First, he walked behind me but then my friend, Lila, called me to wait her. Then I turned back but once again I was too afraid to see his face.
So, He was walking in front of us until his friend came and offered him to go home by his motorcycle. He finally decided to go home with his friend.

But I saw him turning back his body and looking at us.

What does that mean ?

Oh God, what was going on ? please, help me